rewards

M decided to plan a special date for a week after my surgery so I'd have something to look forward to. I was so thrilled by his suggestion! He wants to take me back to Brio, where we had our first date, so I can have some lobster bisque for my first day on full liquids. Right now, I'm still trapped in pre-op diet three-Slimfasts-day-and-nothing-else-oh-god-I'm-STARVING hell so the idea, having something to look forward to, is really working for me.

So I decided to think up a few things that I would also like to do or accomplish when I get to my goal weight. In no particular order:

1. Get married-- in a dress that is not a plus-size.
2. Run a 10-minute mile (a feat not accomplishable since my high school days).
3. Buy some knee-high boots (I have wickedly fat calves).
4. Buy some super-cute dresses that are not designed to cover me up.
5. Wear a bathing suit without a skirt with no shame.
6. Run a half-marathon.
7. Be light enough so that M can pick me up *wink, wink*.
8. Be unashamed to tell M-- or anyone else-- my actual weight.
9. Be confident enough to sign up for classes like dance, spinning, etc.
10. Be able to share clothes with my sister and friends.
11. Post impressive before and after shots.
12. Be comfortable being photographed.
13. Be able to order dessert in a restaurant without being embarassed.
14. Be able to try clothes on in stores without being embarassed about the sizes I'm pulling.