Friday, September 21, 2007
Thursday, September 13, 2007
i'm still alive: day 23
217.0
Ouch, ouch, ouch. Gained 4 lbs since I have started eating solid foods. I know that at least some of that is just having solid food in my digestive tract, but part of me keeps screaming, "Here we go again! Back to fatty land! Man you suck!"
Argh. Its tough, being able to eat again, especially since I'm oh-so-hungry. I have a teeny bit of restriction-- I notice, for example, that "golf ball" feeling I've read about when I take bites that are too large or if I don't chew each bite well enough. However, I am able to eat basically my regular amount if I chew alot, take smaller bites, and eat slowly in general.
I've also been freed to be able to run again, but I haven't yet. I spent a long weekend at my future in-laws last weekend, and since I have gotten back, I have been swamped at work, and swamped with wedding planning. I hate to be a cliche, but it appears that wedding planning is stressful, and it does seem to take up much more of my free time than I thought it would. And I am still in the "trying to pick a place and a date stage!" Frustratingly, I've had so many competing schedules to juggle that I'm not pleased at all with the date I think I'm going to have to go with: March 22, 2008. That gives me just a little over 6 months to lose weight, not to mention its in a "risky" month for an outdoor wedding. Eek.
I am hiding in a conference room to avoid people that are mad at me for not working fast enough. So today I took a 2.5 hour lunch break to go to a special Vera Bradley outlet sale where I got a bunch of cool stuff that my wedding budget is going to be angry about. And now I'll be at work all night to make up for that lunch break. Smart.
Ouch, ouch, ouch. Gained 4 lbs since I have started eating solid foods. I know that at least some of that is just having solid food in my digestive tract, but part of me keeps screaming, "Here we go again! Back to fatty land! Man you suck!"
Argh. Its tough, being able to eat again, especially since I'm oh-so-hungry. I have a teeny bit of restriction-- I notice, for example, that "golf ball" feeling I've read about when I take bites that are too large or if I don't chew each bite well enough. However, I am able to eat basically my regular amount if I chew alot, take smaller bites, and eat slowly in general.
I've also been freed to be able to run again, but I haven't yet. I spent a long weekend at my future in-laws last weekend, and since I have gotten back, I have been swamped at work, and swamped with wedding planning. I hate to be a cliche, but it appears that wedding planning is stressful, and it does seem to take up much more of my free time than I thought it would. And I am still in the "trying to pick a place and a date stage!" Frustratingly, I've had so many competing schedules to juggle that I'm not pleased at all with the date I think I'm going to have to go with: March 22, 2008. That gives me just a little over 6 months to lose weight, not to mention its in a "risky" month for an outdoor wedding. Eek.
I am hiding in a conference room to avoid people that are mad at me for not working fast enough. So today I took a 2.5 hour lunch break to go to a special Vera Bradley outlet sale where I got a bunch of cool stuff that my wedding budget is going to be angry about. And now I'll be at work all night to make up for that lunch break. Smart.
Wednesday, September 5, 2007
back to it: day 15
212.8
Wow, 16.2 lbs gone now. I am feeling better, too. Loads better. I am anxious to start running again and hopeful that my loss will continue, of course at a slower pace, when I do get to start eating solid foods again.
Yesterday I had a milk + chocolate Unjury shake for breakfast (220 cals), 1 cup of broccoli cheese soup at Corner Bakery (310 cals) plus a little bit of the inside of a roll (~100 cals). At supper I had a cup of butternut squash soup (90 cals) and a teensy, half-cup scoop of Breyer's Light Double-Churned vanilla ice cream (100 cals). Total: 820 calories.
Today I've had a milk + chocolate Unjury shake for breakfast (220 cals) and 1 cup of that super delicious baked potato soup (329 cals). I've not planned supper yet, although I do have loads of soups left at home.
All my Dermabond "bandages" have fallen off now. My four small incisions are basically all healed, and I am trying to remember to put Mederma on them daily. My large incision still has a ways to go, but it is definitely on the right track. It is still painful to hard pressure, but I've been feeling it daily and I have found the port (I think). The muscle is still swollen so I have a little "ridge" under there, too.
I have been struggling on and off with nausea. I don't know if its leftover from the surgery, from my still-limited caloric intake, or from consuming soooo much dairy. I have never had true lactose intolerance, though my sister does, but I am also not used to consuming milk daily or even weekly. Generally I have yogurt a couple times a week, or soy milk with cereal, but I've been kicking back lots of cow's milk lately in my shakes, smoothies, and soups. I've also been garnishing soups with reduced-fat sour cream and cheeses.
But, I'm still losing, hurrah!
And I'm busy planning a wedding. God, that seems so weird to say. I am tentatively thinking of early to mid-April, and once I do set a date and get a venue booked, I am going to set a goal weight loss for that date. I am thinking maybe 47 lbs on top of the 16 I've already lost. That would 165, a number I have not seen in many, many years.
Wow, 16.2 lbs gone now. I am feeling better, too. Loads better. I am anxious to start running again and hopeful that my loss will continue, of course at a slower pace, when I do get to start eating solid foods again.
Yesterday I had a milk + chocolate Unjury shake for breakfast (220 cals), 1 cup of broccoli cheese soup at Corner Bakery (310 cals) plus a little bit of the inside of a roll (~100 cals). At supper I had a cup of butternut squash soup (90 cals) and a teensy, half-cup scoop of Breyer's Light Double-Churned vanilla ice cream (100 cals). Total: 820 calories.
Today I've had a milk + chocolate Unjury shake for breakfast (220 cals) and 1 cup of that super delicious baked potato soup (329 cals). I've not planned supper yet, although I do have loads of soups left at home.
All my Dermabond "bandages" have fallen off now. My four small incisions are basically all healed, and I am trying to remember to put Mederma on them daily. My large incision still has a ways to go, but it is definitely on the right track. It is still painful to hard pressure, but I've been feeling it daily and I have found the port (I think). The muscle is still swollen so I have a little "ridge" under there, too.
I have been struggling on and off with nausea. I don't know if its leftover from the surgery, from my still-limited caloric intake, or from consuming soooo much dairy. I have never had true lactose intolerance, though my sister does, but I am also not used to consuming milk daily or even weekly. Generally I have yogurt a couple times a week, or soy milk with cereal, but I've been kicking back lots of cow's milk lately in my shakes, smoothies, and soups. I've also been garnishing soups with reduced-fat sour cream and cheeses.
But, I'm still losing, hurrah!
And I'm busy planning a wedding. God, that seems so weird to say. I am tentatively thinking of early to mid-April, and once I do set a date and get a venue booked, I am going to set a goal weight loss for that date. I am thinking maybe 47 lbs on top of the 16 I've already lost. That would 165, a number I have not seen in many, many years.
Tuesday, September 4, 2007
official
M and I became officially engaged last night!
It was really fun, and romantic, and I'm totally giddy today. So giddy, in fact, that I forgot to weigh myself this morning.
Oh my. There's going to be a rip in the fabric of space-time. Reality is going to come crashing down around my ears.
I have no official word yet on the actual date, but I'm thinking late March or early to mid-April. My friends' scheduling requests are already pouring in so its getting harder and harder, but I am actually having a small wedding (probably 50 - 75) so I am trying to be accomodating. No decisions have been made.
Okay, back to my regularly scheduled programming.
Sunday, September 2, 2007
baked potato soup
4 baking potatoes (about 2 1/2 pounds)
2/3 cup all-purpose flour (about 3 ounces)
6 cups 2% milk
1 cup (4 ounces) reduced-fat shredded extrasharp cheddar cheese, divided
1 teaspoon salt
1/2 teaspoon freshly ground black pepper (I had ground white pepper so that's what I used)
1 cup reduced-fat sour cream
3/4 cup chopped green onions, divided (I omitted)
6 bacon slices, cooked and crumbled (I omitted)
1. Preheat oven to 400 degrees. Pierce potatoes with a fork, bake at 400 degrees for 1 hour or until tender. Cool. Peel potatoes, coarsely mash.
(I didn't want to take the time to do this. I peeled and quartered the potatoes, and boiled them on the stovetop in well-salted water. This also made them a lot moister and, I think, easier to mash into oblivion. However, I think this recipe would work awesome with leftover baked potatoes from a previous evening or, for bandsters, on a night when they are baking potatoes for their families.)
2. Lightly spoon flour into a dry measuring cup; level with a knife. Place flour in a large Dutch oven; gradually add milk, stirring with a whisk until blended. Cook over medium heat until thick and bubbly, about 8 minutes. Add mashed potatoes, 3/4 cup cheese, salt, and 1/2 teaspoon pepper, stirring until cheese melts. Remove from heat.
3. Stir in sour cream and 1/2 cup onions. Cook over low heat 10 minutes or until thoroughly heated (do not boil). Ladle 1 1/2 cups soup into each of 8 bowls. Sprinkle each serving with 1 1/2 teaspoons cheese, 1 1/2 teaspoons onions, and about 1 tablespoon bacon. Garnish with cracked pepper.
Yield: 8 servings
(I made a half-recipe as M does not care for soup. I had it for dinner last night and lunch today and I haven't even eaten a whole serving yet.)
Calories: 329 (30% from fat)
Fat: 10.8 g (sat 5.9 g, mono 3.5 g, poly 0.7 g)
Carb: 44.5 g
Protein: 13.6 g
Fiber: 2.8 g
Chol: 38 mg
Iron: 1.1 mg
Sodium: 587 mg
Calc: 407 mg
Stolen from September 2007 Cooking Light issue, page 140.
2/3 cup all-purpose flour (about 3 ounces)
6 cups 2% milk
1 cup (4 ounces) reduced-fat shredded extrasharp cheddar cheese, divided
1 teaspoon salt
1/2 teaspoon freshly ground black pepper (I had ground white pepper so that's what I used)
1 cup reduced-fat sour cream
3/4 cup chopped green onions, divided (I omitted)
6 bacon slices, cooked and crumbled (I omitted)
1. Preheat oven to 400 degrees. Pierce potatoes with a fork, bake at 400 degrees for 1 hour or until tender. Cool. Peel potatoes, coarsely mash.
(I didn't want to take the time to do this. I peeled and quartered the potatoes, and boiled them on the stovetop in well-salted water. This also made them a lot moister and, I think, easier to mash into oblivion. However, I think this recipe would work awesome with leftover baked potatoes from a previous evening or, for bandsters, on a night when they are baking potatoes for their families.)
2. Lightly spoon flour into a dry measuring cup; level with a knife. Place flour in a large Dutch oven; gradually add milk, stirring with a whisk until blended. Cook over medium heat until thick and bubbly, about 8 minutes. Add mashed potatoes, 3/4 cup cheese, salt, and 1/2 teaspoon pepper, stirring until cheese melts. Remove from heat.
3. Stir in sour cream and 1/2 cup onions. Cook over low heat 10 minutes or until thoroughly heated (do not boil). Ladle 1 1/2 cups soup into each of 8 bowls. Sprinkle each serving with 1 1/2 teaspoons cheese, 1 1/2 teaspoons onions, and about 1 tablespoon bacon. Garnish with cracked pepper.
Yield: 8 servings
(I made a half-recipe as M does not care for soup. I had it for dinner last night and lunch today and I haven't even eaten a whole serving yet.)
Calories: 329 (30% from fat)
Fat: 10.8 g (sat 5.9 g, mono 3.5 g, poly 0.7 g)
Carb: 44.5 g
Protein: 13.6 g
Fiber: 2.8 g
Chol: 38 mg
Iron: 1.1 mg
Sodium: 587 mg
Calc: 407 mg
Stolen from September 2007 Cooking Light issue, page 140.
been naughty: day 12
214.4
First of all, this is the third day in a row that I've weighed in at exactly that. I am frustrated that I am still consuming so far below 1,000 calories (up to about 800 a day now) and my loss has stalled. I'm also not working out yet, so I'm hoping that once I'm healed, I can eat that little, but workout and still lose.
I have to confess, because I feel very naughty. M bought me some Edy's Double Churned Light caramel ice cream, 130 calories per half-cup serving. I've had a half-cup serving the last two nights. But even worse: last night we went to see The Bourne Ultimatum early, at 6:30 p.m. When we got out at 8:30 p.m. we were both really hungry. We stopped at Moe's so M could get a burrito. Moe's chips and cheese dip have always been an irresistable draw for me and... I have to confess... I ate some teensy tiny bits of soft flour tortilla, dipped in the cheese dip, and chewed to paste. I was so hungry. Now, of course, in true Yo-Yo Dieter fashion, my "all or nothing" thinking has kicked in and I'm petrified that I've Ruined Everything and Slipped My Band and Now You'll Always Be Fat Because You Have No Willpower, You Giant Waste of Skin.
Ugh. I'm trying to move on, I really am. I am eating my full liquids and trying not to worry myself into a nervous breakdown.
On a positive note, I've been getting really close to 60 grams of protein a day, thanks to the Unjury. I've been making shakes with 1 cup milk and Unjury (29 grams) or 1 cup fat-free yogurt, frozen fruit, and Unjury (30 grams). Yesterday I had one for breakfast and one for supper. I plan a similar strategy for today. The Unjury is expensive-- I've already done significant damage to two of the four containers I bought-- but its really tasty, and the protein is important right now. I don't want my hairs to fall out!
I've been thinking about making an oatmeal using unflavored Unjury for breakfasts once I'm back to solids. I know some people continue to use the protein shakes after they have good restriction just to make sure they are getting enough protein.
I've also been doing well as far as taking my Flintstone vitamins. I can't believe I wasted money on those horrifically disgusting GNC liquid vitamins.
Yesterday I made some baked potato soup from a recipe in my most recent issue of Cooking Light. It was extremely filling for just a half-cup, and really rich. It totals about 329 calories for one cup, but I left off the called-for bacon crumbles and managed only about a half-cup anyway, so I think it was worth it. It was really simple-- just basically potatoes, mashed (I boiled them instead of baking), flour, 2% milk, reduced fat sour cream, shredded sharp cheddar cheese, salt and pepper. The original also called for green onions, but like the bacon, I left them out as being too solid.
Today I've had a strawberry, fat-free yogurt, and Unjury smoothie (235 cals). I plan another half-cup of baked potato soup for lunch (160 cals), 1 cup of tomato soup with 2 Tbsp of feta (140 cals) and a 2% milk and chocolate Unjury smoothie for supper (220 cals). Total for day: 755 cals.
First of all, this is the third day in a row that I've weighed in at exactly that. I am frustrated that I am still consuming so far below 1,000 calories (up to about 800 a day now) and my loss has stalled. I'm also not working out yet, so I'm hoping that once I'm healed, I can eat that little, but workout and still lose.
I have to confess, because I feel very naughty. M bought me some Edy's Double Churned Light caramel ice cream, 130 calories per half-cup serving. I've had a half-cup serving the last two nights. But even worse: last night we went to see The Bourne Ultimatum early, at 6:30 p.m. When we got out at 8:30 p.m. we were both really hungry. We stopped at Moe's so M could get a burrito. Moe's chips and cheese dip have always been an irresistable draw for me and... I have to confess... I ate some teensy tiny bits of soft flour tortilla, dipped in the cheese dip, and chewed to paste. I was so hungry. Now, of course, in true Yo-Yo Dieter fashion, my "all or nothing" thinking has kicked in and I'm petrified that I've Ruined Everything and Slipped My Band and Now You'll Always Be Fat Because You Have No Willpower, You Giant Waste of Skin.
Ugh. I'm trying to move on, I really am. I am eating my full liquids and trying not to worry myself into a nervous breakdown.
On a positive note, I've been getting really close to 60 grams of protein a day, thanks to the Unjury. I've been making shakes with 1 cup milk and Unjury (29 grams) or 1 cup fat-free yogurt, frozen fruit, and Unjury (30 grams). Yesterday I had one for breakfast and one for supper. I plan a similar strategy for today. The Unjury is expensive-- I've already done significant damage to two of the four containers I bought-- but its really tasty, and the protein is important right now. I don't want my hairs to fall out!
I've been thinking about making an oatmeal using unflavored Unjury for breakfasts once I'm back to solids. I know some people continue to use the protein shakes after they have good restriction just to make sure they are getting enough protein.
I've also been doing well as far as taking my Flintstone vitamins. I can't believe I wasted money on those horrifically disgusting GNC liquid vitamins.
Yesterday I made some baked potato soup from a recipe in my most recent issue of Cooking Light. It was extremely filling for just a half-cup, and really rich. It totals about 329 calories for one cup, but I left off the called-for bacon crumbles and managed only about a half-cup anyway, so I think it was worth it. It was really simple-- just basically potatoes, mashed (I boiled them instead of baking), flour, 2% milk, reduced fat sour cream, shredded sharp cheddar cheese, salt and pepper. The original also called for green onions, but like the bacon, I left them out as being too solid.
Today I've had a strawberry, fat-free yogurt, and Unjury smoothie (235 cals). I plan another half-cup of baked potato soup for lunch (160 cals), 1 cup of tomato soup with 2 Tbsp of feta (140 cals) and a 2% milk and chocolate Unjury smoothie for supper (220 cals). Total for day: 755 cals.
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